deathA story about Lil Anthony
Arnel jumped up as soon as he saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. He said: "How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?"
The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it."
Arnel look up in the sky and said, "Why do little children get burned? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son lil Anthony needed you?"
The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university."
Arnel asked the nurse to stay with him while he said good-bye to lil Anthony. He ran his trembling fingers lovingly through his son's thick brown hair.
"Would you like a lock of his hair?" the nurse asked.
Arnel nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to him. Arnel said, "It was lil Anthony's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but my lil Anthony said, 'Papa, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Papa." He went on, "My lil Anthony had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could."
Arnel walked out of Children's mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the week there. He put the bag with Anthony's belongings on the seat beside him in the car. The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. He carried Anthony's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to his son's old room. He started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where lil Anthony had always kept them. Just before lil Anthony moved in with his mother. He laid down across lil Anthony's bed, hugging and smelling lil Anthony's pillow, with tear's falling from Arnel's face he fell asleep.
It was around midnight when Arnel awoke. Laying beside him on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:
"Dear Papa, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say "I LOVE YOU PAPA". I will always love you, Even more, Papa with each and every day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, She probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma Tarcing and Grandpa Stanley met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Papa? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good-bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Papa? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him?' "God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.
Oh, by the way, Papa, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm, sure the food will be great.
Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The Burn marks are all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?
Signed:
with Love from God, Jesus & Your Lil Boy Anthony
Life, "Find someone to love. Have kids and live like there's no tomorrow"
R.I.P. Lil Anthony Mangosing
I miss you my son, Arnel Mangosing (PaPa)
THiS 0NES F0R THE GiRLS
This one is for the girls you can take home to mom, but won't because its easier to have sex with a whore than work on a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with..
This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over "her", he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that guy's don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone.
This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too selfish to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech. for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen us guy's from across the room leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly with the girl he's with to be an "old friend."
This is for the girls who have showed up party after party just to be in his presence, and finally realizing that it wasn't that he didn't want a relationship: it was that he didn't want you.
this is for the nights his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just right, said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way.. then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had.
This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep. This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment & this is for realizing that when you choose friends, you hardly choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep.
This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have settled for what he was giving because at least he was giving something. this is for the stupidity of the nights you've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing that you have ever wanted or need.
This is for the hugs you've received from your boyfriends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful. and that you are truly worthy of a great guy; this is for the regret youve felt as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow.
This ones for the girls: broukensoul918 (Not all guy's are @ssholes), Ashenrose and Ozzie (Ozzie was always there dor Dana ) (Ozzie will pull through with flying colors) stbyprincess149 (My Heart, I wish her happiness until etenity) Aprincess87, PrincesSlut (April and KiKi , No matter how people portray you both. Your both Princesses in my eye's) Pnaismilez, baybeegurl09, Verraten (My Pinay sisters) 1 of 6 (Lotus who manages to read all my post) BlueRobyn, JustaJounaler, arabgirll16, Cherlessgrin, Bellavista, Maliicent, Mabella914, Scared 2love, Fyreth, Loveisnicotine, coedKaren, boycrazygrl88, Lyndseykins, Pussypatter, lilsexfreak, Loveatlast, Erin8ver, swimmincutie, dixyprincess,, jillychat2, Amarana5, Pixyprincess,, anglund, Tellagurl realitybites. V24, dazeeday (This ones for all the women on my friends list on Mindsay)
Take care and Everyone Stay Blessed, Arnel
Question:
1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Place of residence:
4. Favorite ice-cream novelty:
5. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. Do you read my mindsay:
7. If you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Do you have a crush at the moment:
10. Favourite place to be:
11. Favourite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Best album of 2005:
14. Where would you take me/where would you like me to take you on a date:
15. First impression of me:
RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A band, a song and an album:
PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your mindsay so I can tell you what I think of you.
The Ex-Files
Are you in the trenches of a breakup? This
2006 Year, heal your wounds.
Relationships come and go – a sad or happy
fact depending on the circumstance. On one
hand, you can’t help but be grateful that bad
matches don’t last forever but on the other,
everyone has suffered through a break up they
wish had never come. However, whether you’re
gleefully getting out of a dating disaster or
you’re emotionally crushed by the cruel hand
of cupid, there are certain rules that apply
when it comes to dealing with your ex – or not
dealing as it were.
The following tips may not cure heartbreak,
but they will help ease the pain of ending a
relationship, no matter which side you’re on!
1. Don't try to be there friend.
While the option is tempting (particularly if
you still want to hang on or if you’re the one
trying to break it to them gently), unless you
have children, there is no reason to remain
friends with your ex – at least not when you
first break up!
Having your ex around does nothing to help
you recover emotionally or establish a new
routine (two very necessary components of the
post-relationship healing process), and in the
end, it just drags out the pain. Think about it:
when you notice the difference in the way they
treat you versus when you were together, you
may tend to feel hurt, or in the least, resentful.
However, it’s understandable and natural that
once you’ve split, you are no longer there
priority. So, while you may feel like ‘some of
them is better than none of them’ the simple
truth is, without all of them, there’s not a real
relationship – and you deserve better.
2. Erase there contact info
No one is claiming that it’s easy to cut the cord.
Since your ex was very likely your go to person
in times of crisis when the two of you were
together, you may find you have a natural
tendency to want to speak to them about this
problem. But the thing is, they are the
problem… and in this case, cannot be the
solution. So…
Whether it’s deleting there cell from your quick
dial, there IM from your buddy list or there
email from your online address book, go ahead
and do it for the time being, to avoid the
temptation to write/dial/text in a weak moment.
By this point, you should be sure that you’ve
said all there is to say (and been honest). If you
haven’t, consider what you get from unloading,
and if it’s something you absolutely need to do
in order to move on then do it – one last time.
Afterward, can the contact. You’re probably
getting redundant, and nothing you say is
likely to make them change there mind. Break
up time is a great time to learn about X-
communication: words are a means to an
end… and our need to discuss and re-discuss
every single issue does not usually bode well
with them, especially once they’ve broken up
with you and no longer feel required to listen or
exchange.
While you’re at it, delete all the old email
messages that went between you. You can read
and re-read them until you’re blue, and while a
little release is a good thing, it’s really easy to
romanticize a relationship once it’s over,
particularly as you take repeat trips down
memory lane. There cute email titles, the way
they signed things ‘love, love, love’ or whatever
they did that now seems absolutely amazing
and unbeatable by any person living or dead,
will lead you into tricking yourself. Good times
aside, there’s a reason you broke up. And
rather than spend your time saying “why?!”
think about what you have learned from this
experience… and how you’ll handle yourself
better next time. When doing your learning
litmus though, remember that you have no
control over them only yourself! Try not to
dwell (easier said than done for sure).
3. Put away the mementos
After my most heart wrenching break up, I kept
my ex’s picture up for a full year. YES. A year.
And I can’t tell you how much time I wasted
staring at her face trying to will her back to
me… Only in retrospect, that wasn’t really
what I was doing. I was actually indulging in
my pain because it was easier (and strangely,
more familiar) than picking up the pieces and
moving on. But ultimately, that’s what you’re
going to need to do. Eventually, you’ll be able
to reminisce. However, now is not the time; your
glasses are too rosy and your heart is too sore.
So nix the reminders of days gone by and get
into the now. After all, the now is all you’ve
really got. Take the now as a gift, That's why
they call it the present. Let it be a lesson in how
much you’re going to enjoy the good times the
next time you’re having them… and how much
you’re going to grow from the pain that you’re
allowing yourself to feel and subsequently,
release.
Every break up requires some mourning. These
suggestions aren’t meant to imply that you
need to get out there immediately and forget
them. But it’s important not to live in your
pain. In all likelihood, by this point, you’ve
made light of the little things about them that
drove you crazy as well as some of the bigger
ones and you’re simply afraid to let go of
something and someone you know. One of our
hardest lessons is that life goes on… but it
does. Believe it or not, in no time you’ll be
feeling like your old self again… only new and
improved!
Thank You All for reading and Stay Blessed,
Arnel
the purpose of life?
I think we all get into trouble for thinking about the purpose of life. What I mean is it is a complex question that cannot be answered with the definite capital "Truth" answer. Although we can ponder on our goals, aspirations, dreams. . .those which are meant to be achieved or strived for. The purpose of life, however, is finding the truth to why we are put to earth and why we are alive. There definitely is a purpose to our lives, but I don't think there is one truth.
I don't think most people care these days about the purpose of life. Why question when there is so much to live for and experience out there, right? There are so many things that our eyes fancy and our hearts want. Why waste our time in questioning something that we may never possibly find an answer to?
I am certainly not on a goal to find the purpose of life in 2006, but I am confident enough to say that I rather find the purpose of my life. It is a continuous evolutionary process of discovering who I am, where I belong, what are my views, etc. We will see as I continue to grow into the person that I will ultimately become.
Arnel
Like a Dove
Strawberry Banana V8....numI am eating